By Sarah Haywood
What is your most debilitating limiting belief?
We all have many limiting beliefs, but isolate one that really interferes with your growth or impacts your ability to take action in your life. You don’t feel good enough? You don’t make enough money? You’re not smart enough? You aren’t pretty enough? You aren’t thin enough? You’re not lovable enough? You’re too much? Not enough?
Don’t force this, but rather allow your awareness to bring you something you feel limited about. Perhaps it is a fear you have, a doubt, or a feeling that is uncomfortable for you.
This is your current “I am” state, such as “I am sad, “I am joyful,” or I am “numb.” Hold that feeling in the sacredness of your womb, heart or solar plexus. Don’t try to “fix” or change it, for that would dishonor the wisdom that lives within the feeling and its inherent limits. Keep in mind that there is a gift on the other side of all of these limiting beliefs. Many times we feel scared to let go of these limiting beliefs because we have identified with them for so long. Simply be with the feeling. As you hold it, feel your compassion swell within you, just as you would feel compassion for a child in need. Do nothing, except BE with it. Love it. Accept it. Embrace it, like a scared child that needs some TLC.
It will, in its own time, transform into a greater state of freedom. It might transform the first time you hold the feeling in this way. It might take several attempts, but it will transform—on its own—in the presence of your compassion, awareness, love and full acceptance. It will emerge into a new “I am.”
Find a quiet place and moment.
Breathe gently and sweetly, accepting the nourishment of the air, the day, spirit, whatever fills you with peace. Then focus on your womb or heart or solar plexus. Allow all your attention to connect to the physical or energetic space within you. Feel/know/sense/see/hear its darkness, its vastness, its sacred nature, and its ability to hold all possibilities in love and compassion.
Go to your womb/heart/solar plexus and there see and sense the belief that limits you. See it, hold it, forgive it, love it, be with it, so that it can die a peaceful death.
You might sense, see, hear or know that new “I am” as a symbol, visualization, feeling, sound, word or sense. Allow this awareness to come from deep within you, rather than from your rational mind. Even if the “I am” does not make logical sense, it will make sense to your soul and that is where true self-awareness resides.
In order to expand your spiritual field, you are going to welcome and lovingly bond with a part of yourself that helps you experience more wholeness, merging your inner feminine and masculine.
You may experience the integration as an energetic cohesion of the two parts within each chakra. You may feel that part simply step into your skin. You may feel it slip into your awareness as it slowly merges with you up or down your spine. You might sense that the light of the Sacred Masculine emerges from the dark of the Sacred Feminine. How it merges with you is not as significant as your willingness to allow this part of yourself to more fully integrate into your consciousness. Hold the intention of merger and welcoming energy until you feel your energetic body’s full acceptance. When the merger is complete, you will feel as though something is complete that was not before.
Over time, you may find this merger takes place more and more quickly. You may also find the nature of the merger changes over time from one archetypal aspect of yourself to another. Once the integration has taken place, affirm your oneness. Affirm your intention of oneness and hold a welcoming energy of oneness until you feel your energetic body receive it.
In this last step, you open to space in which your life force re-creates itself. Consider your new “I am” like a seed or sphere of light. You do not need to be able to feel it in order to sense it. Allow the top of your head (crown chakra) to open in welcoming love to the seed or sphere. All chakras have their own unique vibration of love, so allow yourself to become attuned to their loving vibrations.
Slowly invite the sphere/seed to be lovingly received by each of the energy bodies make its way down through the chakras from the: 1) crown, 2) third eye, 3) throat, 4) heart, 5) solar plexus, 6) digestive area and last, the root chakra at the tail bone and reproductive center.
Take your time with this, for the seed may need to gestate in each chakra for minutes or days. When it has reached the root chakra and is ready to give birth, it will emerge from your energetic vagina or perineum and become the life force of you born anew. Notice if a new “I am” comes to you.
You might want to bring a symbol of this new “I am” to your altar to help you remember to honor this new or renewed nature of your self-awareness.
Then, if your heart calls you, come back to this blog and share a story about your transformation through this meditation that will inspire another woman or man who may be struggling with a similar limit. In this way, we will gently encourage each other to continue the journey of re-creating ourselves. After all, that is our divine birthright.
Now is the time to listen to the heart. Move beyond fear and give your wings a chance to grow. When you make a conscious choice to step into mystery, your metamorphosis begins.
As you shift from what you have always known to who you must be, your wings take shape and suddenly the cocoon breaks apart and you emerge fully formed, triumphant, ready to take flight.
Envision your intention for the next phase of your personal transformation.
Ready yourself for what might come next.
Be open to the infinite possibilities.